Yesterday official made three weeks that I am late for my period. Being concerned I made an appointment with my Obstetrician. When I was a week late, I took a home pregnancy test that turned out to be negative. When I was two weeks late I took another test which was also negative. Needless to say over that weekend I was a bit nervous because ever since I was finished my HRT back in March my cycles were on the nose … exactly every 5 weeks. So, I saw my doc this past Wednesday and he has me on Medroxyprogesterone – one pill a day for 10 days – to hopefully get my cycle started again. I tell you, since the next day, my boobs are hurting like a mo fo. I dread taking off the bra cause it hurts when I do. I should start my period anywhere up to two weeks after the last pill. Oh yeah, and by the way … I’m NOT pregnant.

I don’t know if I should be happy or sad about not being pregnant. I have two wonderful children and the last time I carried a baby to term was 11 years ago. Since I had Sianna I was told I could not have anymore babies due to scarring in my uterus. I was fine with that … I had my boy and my girl. Then I met my current husband and I had three miscarriages during the three years we were together. I almost got myself fixed until I met John. He’ll be 31 next week and does not have children. He was kinda disappointed that the results were negative. He says he’s not ready yet, but I know he wants children. With all the crap that’s happened to me in the last year alone, my biological clock is running out fast. He’s gonna make a wonderful father and I hope a higher power sees it fit to let me carry another baby to term in the future.

Now that marching season is just about over for Chris, he can concentrate on wrestling. He’s on the JV team. He’s also going out for Judo a little later in the year. I need to find me a new scanner so I can share pictures with you guys. He took some really good shots of Ground Zero and of the Pentagon while he was on the East Coast.

I can’t believe it’s already December. John finally got his boat going and we’ll be spending New Years Eve off the west coast of O’ahu to watch the fire works. I can’t wait. His goal was to get it ready by his birthday and I told him it BETTER be ready by my birthday on the 16th … or else … nah, not the or else … hehe.

Well kiddies, I’m off to bed … I got some major shopping to do first thing in the morning. Have a great weekend and I’ll write ya soon!

Hapa